tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25657802056119601412012-02-16T02:30:56.574-08:00Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.comBlogger61100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-17277432037157156602011-12-11T09:58:00.001-08:002011-12-11T10:10:40.037-08:00The Game of life going on. The little life has arrived and given some of the most happy and memorable moments of my life. Personal problems have kept swinging up and down. I have been thinking and wishing it will go away someday. But I guess, God is punishing me for my sins of prevoius birth.<br />This time i experienced what i had never experienced before. A new hieght of entropy... in the relationship.... and that has left me shaken stirred and unstable.<br />I sacrificied my job, my career, my likes...and this time my honor of being a man. Something, I dint even compromised for my family members. huh... the Just, impartial, loving person..... who used to have pride in owning and displyaing these qualitities.... is slowly dying.... I wish asking for death was as ease as my counter part things it is. With the little one around...I cant do that also...afterall some amount of Man is still within me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-1727743203715715660?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-19498332505497751302009-01-25T08:24:00.000-08:002009-01-25T08:34:04.494-08:00<div><br /></div><div>aj ankhen nam hai</div><div>kutch tu gham hai</div><div><br /></div><div>dil mein chupa hua</div><div>ankhon mein jhalakta hua</div><div><br /></div><div>ro nahin saktein hai hum</div><div>par kar tu saktein hai ankhen nam</div><div><br /></div><div>zindagi jeena chahte the hum</div><div>sab kutch jeet lena chahte the hum</div><div>na socha tha takdeer kya hogi</div><div>na socha tha kaisa hoga tasavvur hamara</div><div><br /></div><div>Dekhte-2 humari duniya palat gayi</div><div>ek hi pal mein humari zindagi badal gayi</div><div><br /></div><div>Na jeene ki qwahish hai</div><div>na maut ka hai asra</div><div>ab hum kya karien</div><div>mere khuda tu hi bata</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-1949833250549775130?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-48775190893168783772009-01-22T09:07:00.000-08:002009-01-22T09:35:31.312-08:00Like everything, our thoughts and attitude also changes with changing times. So has been the case with me. I changed a lot in past few years. I am really not sure good or bad, cause the change has made me confused for the first time in life. And for the first time I am not sure of things to do.<div><br /></div><div>Generally I am very clear person-I know what I want and what i dont. But then I am also very principle centred and believe in right ans wrong. History has been proof that people who have been principle centred, never had great family life. And my mistake is I want a good family life as well.</div><div><br /></div><div>A good family life is nothing but ability to compromise as per situation, which i find very difficult  do but have been doing till date. I thought after thathe teething problems finally one day it will stabilize. But i was wrong. But that is not the hproblem. The problem is now my family is going to get bigger, we are expecting one more member.</div><div><br /></div><div>When I heard this news was i was full of joy with a sense of proud. The feeling of fathering a child is one of the best a man can have. I was full of dreams. But soon reality stuck me and I realised that the greatest bliss should have been given a miss. When 2 person cannot make gud family i dont think they can take gud care of the third person. Life becomes more complicated. Now the two will feel they are burdened by the third and cant even think of separation. They will life for the new one and not for each other. And any relationship, which is binded by a third force can never last long. </div><div><br /></div><div>But what saddens me is the thought of being asked by my child "Papa when u cud not give me gud life why did u brought me in this world?". The very thought of this burdens my heart and makes me feel cry (but i wont cause i am a man). What will i answer him? I love kids, looking into thier small but twinkling eyes, thier innocent smiles, thier cute ways. For so many years I have been thinking how i will raise my kids, how will i treat them and more importantly what kinda life will i give them. But suddenly I feel guilty of thinking all this.</div><div><br /></div><div>So I should have not brought him because we two could not resolve our difference or create a good uderstanding. The question is not about who is at fault, the question is should I bring him in this world or not? The question is "What right and what is wrong?"</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-4877519089316878377?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-85131546368666297692009-01-21T01:35:00.000-08:002009-01-21T05:23:38.936-08:00kya bataein aur kisko bataein<div>kaise the hum aur kya ho gaye hai hum</div><div><br /></div><div>zindagi ko jindadili se jite the hum</div><div>chahe ho khushi ya gham</div><div><br /></div><div>par ab zindagi se mayus ho gaye hain hum</div><div>har khusi se mehroom ho gaye hain hum</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-8513154636866629769?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-613077856330860052009-01-14T06:26:00.000-08:002009-01-14T06:30:07.332-08:00I had committed one mistake. Though I did not realise it then, soon after i did. I decided lot of things to overcome it, but destiny had it other way. I committed another mistake. And now I think there is no way out. I am going to live my life as if I am already dead. It is a stange feeling... painfull , regretfull, angry ... all a t the same time. <div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-61307785633086005?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2565780205611960141.post-63424530582169221992008-07-11T02:30:00.000-07:002008-07-11T04:55:11.308-07:00All these years I have been exploring life... trying to learn managing its ups and downs and trying to be happy with watever i have. There where HIGH moments, and there were low moments, moments of despair, sadness..... But still i never thought wat i have been thinking offlate now. I have no purpose in life.<br />'Purpose' has alwasys been important to me in life, and for that matter to anyone. But now i realise i have lost the purpose of life...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2565780205611960141-6342453058216922199?l=understandinglifenmyself.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Dreammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11892889350076504026noreply@blogger.com2